Open Question: Money Problems, Depression, Suicidal…?

30/04/11

Ok to start this off I am a 24 year old single guy living alone. I come from a decently wealthy family. I moved away from home young and started working as an accountant. I dated a girl in that time for 7 years and spent a lot of time with her. I found out that she was pregnant (unexpected but what can you do about that), after she tells me this in less than 2 weeks she dumps me (about a year ago now) and by the end of that month she is with another guy. That kind of shocked me and I didn’t know what to do. After I contacted my parents about it they got very angry at me over the whole deal. Around that same time my salary was cut substantially (around 15-20%). This eventually forced me to sell my vehicle and cut most major luxury items from my life. As my salary was down and I am now single without the extra income from the ex. Fast forward to a few months ago and my grandfather was very sick I used to visit them every evening for dinner. I had to stop going there due to money slowly being depleted. Since I sold my vehicle I don’t have that to drive first of all and the fuel cost was getting a little high. My grandfather passed away 2 months ago and now my family seems very distant from me. My older brother happens to be getting married next month and he asked me to not come.
Now this past week I was 1 month late on my mortgage payment (had to borrow from a family member [which they were unhappy but I had a foreclosure statement unless paid]). Therefore I created a slight uneasy feeling with my family again.
Today, I received a phone call from the aforementioned ex and she said she is taking me to court for child support. I am not sure if I am even the father. I know they would do a paternity test but if I am, there is absolutely no way I could afford it. I am literally scraping by now. I have $159 to my name. With $2500 bills in a month.
I used to drive a very nice car in high school and college now I ride a bike to work and eat only 1-2 meals a day. I blame myself for all of this and for pushing everyone away including the few friends I had. I have lost roughly 52 lbs in a year by cutting down to 1 or 2 meals a day. I am extremely embarrassed and I’m not sure how my employer will view me getting possibly put on child support. Can someone give me some advice or point me in a direction I can get some advice. As every waking moment I think of just ending it all, I joke about it all the time with the 1 friend that is also a co-worker just to see his reactions. If this last much longer it will be just a matter of time before I join the suicide statistics.
Again I realize I was very “spoiled” growing up and I had a lot handed to me. Now that I have been having financial problems I see how much my family helped me. Since they now have somewhat disowned me as a member, I don’t know who to turn to. Sorry for this being so long and thank you to whoever may read it.

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