Open Question: No one to talk to - tried to with mom?

03/02/12

I have a lot of bottled up emotions.
I have a lot of anxiety and I stress really badly.
I have trouble expressing myself and when I can’t explain it right I get angry which in return causes the person I am trying to tell mad.

I am finding myself breaking down - fast. And everything I have kept inside is now building up so much I am a huge emotional mess. I know I need help but I’m stuck. I have always been the type to joke around (a lot) and so the times I am trying to be serious people think I am joking around when I finally work up the courage to tell them I am being serious I get this every single time .. “you have nothing in your life to be stressed about… your spoiled you get everything you want, your 20 and live at home, and you work a part time job that doesn’t ask that much of you” which makes me begin to think I am really am spoiled and I am just being selfish looking for attention and all of my problems aren’t worth anything.
When I finally try and talk to my mom she always tells me I better be joking because she does a lot for me.

Now, I have to admit I do get A LOT of things that I do want and I am very blessed to be so lucky with a roof over my head, food to eat and other luxuries. But I still can’t help but feel something in me just isn’t whole.
I am stuck - I need help so I am thinking a therapist or a counselor will help me a lot (especially with my first year in college coming up here in a couple weeks) but I don’t know how to go about telling my mom that I need help.

I can’t help but feel as if I am over exaggerating because I have zero support from family or friends.
How do I go about this? Am I just being over dramatic?

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