A few years ago, my life was perfect. I had premium cable, luxuries, I was in the easiest grades of school. But now, it seems that my life just caved in. Now, I’m a Christian, I love Jesus Christ, The Holy Spirit, God, etc. For some reason, it all started when Michael Jackson died. It sounds really weird, I know, but it connected somehow with my whole life. When he died, I knew fewthings about him. Wasn’t a fan, nada. But then, everyone was all sad, crying, ya know? The economy seemed to dip further. A few months after Michael passed, my grandfather did too. I wasn’t very close to him, but he was my grandfather, I loved him. After he died, my mom slowly became more and more lazy, fatigued, and depressed. Mind you, for about three years in a row before this, my mother said I couldn’t see my grandmother, who I love dearly. Well, then I just lost focus of everything. My mom started staying home in bed all the time, and it hasn’t been much different since. Right now, I have a very littl. Amount of clothes for school, and although I have an iPod touch, it’s completely cracked, and there’s a virus on it I think. There’s absolutely nothing to eat or drink (except tap water), my mom is sleeping right now. She has no job, she dropped out of college, and she made me get rid of what I call, my “blessing in disguise”. She found a little chihuahua, she was malnourished teeth rotted, etc. He body showed abuse and neglect. As soon as she came in the door she ran over and jumped on my lap. I knew she was going to be my little angel. We kept her, and she was found a week or so before my birthday. My mom said I couldn’t have any presents for my birthday because the et bill would be about $500. I didn’t even care. Now she’s gone. My mom spends the only money we have on cigarettes, she’s rude, self centered, and abusive. I cry every night for hours. I pray, but it doesn’t seem as if anything happens. It feels as if God isn’t watching over me:( I need guidance. Please help me.

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