Resolved Question: Cant get over my moms death no matter how hard I try.?

27/06/10

Its been over a year and few months. I personally feel it getting even harder now then it was in the beginning and Its really taking a toll on me. I am trying my hardest to change my mindset by reading books, going out, talking on the phone, or whatever I can do. I have lost all interest in all my old activities. I started therapy a few weeks ago. I have hysterical crying episodes once or twice a week and have breakdowns in public more now then ever. I think the main issue was I never saw my mom when she died. She was back home and passed away there . She was buried next to my father which she always wanted. But I just cant let go. I have gained weight, smoke 3 packs a cigarettes a day, I am just not the old me anymore. I virtually have no family in the states except 2 brothers which we are not close at all in anyway , shape or form. I feel really alone in this world. I used to believe there was another side where we would all be and be happy. But know I look at it realistically and basically when your died its all over. Thanks everyone for hearing me out.

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