We live a somewhat luxurious life, all because of the hard work of my father. My father’s been working abroad ever since I could remember. He would come home for a month every year. Sometimes he would not be home for a couple of years and he’d be here for two months. He’d position his “vacation” month with us everytime there’s a special occasion in the family like my high school graduation, or the Christmas month. Ever since I was a child I kept asking him to stop working and just stay put at home and find work locally. He keeps on promising:”Hopefully, by 2004″”I promise you I’ll stop by 2005″”2006, son”
I finally gave up when I reached my teenage years. He was my hero, my idol. But I realized he’ll never fulfill his promises. I stopped bugging him and I guess at the same time lost my reverence for him. Whenever he’s at home, I would help him in doing anything electronics-related, as that is his passion. I want to be closer to him, but I can’t because I never really shared the same passion for computer and gadgets that he wants me to develop. I’m a geek, love to read books, and are passionate to animals. My passions are widely different from his. He never understood me for being who I am. He sees my behavior as a “phase” and would amusingly entertain me when I talk about anima science and books I’ve read but deep down I know those are my real passions. He just kept on pressing me to “toughen up”. Eventually, I have grown to hate him.

How do I resolve this problem? I keep putting up the subject of what I feel about what he’s doing but he always somehow shoots me down. I feel like he’s abandoning us. I can’t talk him out of working because he’s close to retirement already. But I really do miss my father. It’s like he just exists to grant us our luxuries but never stands as a father figure to us siblings…

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