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I’m 32 weeks pregnant with my 4th child. I have 3 other kids, 2 of which don’t listen to a single thing I say, and the other (my oldest) is always helping with the chores and never has time to be a kid. I’m a stay at home mom at the time because daycare expenses are ridiculous, and my husband who holds a full time job is also a student. We don’t get help from any sort of assistance, and 1 full time job is not enough for a family of 5 soon to be 6, so we’ve had to give up certain luxuries in life just to live. We have one car which he takes to go about his daily schedule which means I get stuck at home every day from 6am to 11pm. Doesn’t leave much time to do grocery shopping or anything else. I enjoy being able to take advantage of being home with the kids, but sometimes I wish I had some help so I could get away for a few hours. I seem to have a routine down. I wake the same time daily, breakfast, bath, snack, lunch, nap, snack, dinner, homework, and then time to relax. I clean all day long, dishes, garbages, etc… until it’s finally bed time and then I wake the next morning to do it all again. I feel I have an under-appreciation from not only my spouse, but from some who I would call friends. I try not to complain but as a woman it seems to help make me feel better. My friends tell me how lucky I am and that I should be happy, but most of them are single and don’t have the option to stay home. I envy them. I feel there is nothing worse than having to ask my husband for money when I know we barely have any. I find myself using dish soap for laundry detergent just because I don’t want to have to resort to asking for money. I can’t say that I have such a happy marriage either for reasons I choose not to mention. But sometimes I wonder if I would be better off single. At least that way, I may qualify for assistance and I wouldn’t feel as though I was a burden to my own husband. I’m trying really hard to make every second count and come to terms with my situation, but I can’t help feeling so overwhlemed. Is there anybody out there who has been in this situation that can help me figure things out?

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