I’m 15 and a Sophmore in high school. I am smart and know a lot for my age, but acedemically (in school my grades do not reflect that) I have 2 F’S, 2 C’S, 1 A, 1 B. Grades were always dificult for me, and the highest GPA I’ve ever earned in school was a 3.05 in the 7th grade for one semester. Now, after all my previous years of mediocre grades and the promise of improvement, I am stuck mentally making no improvement on grades. I am a nice and decent person, and I aspire to have a good life, travel, maybe be a Phycologist, work in the Peace Corps, or be a Photo Journalist. But, I’m afraid with the grades I hold now, that it will make it harder or unfeasible for my occupational dreams come true.

I don’t always study, I don’t always do my homework, I don’t always plan out well for long term projects, usually because I am distracted by the computer on Facebook and or surfing the web, when I am at home. I get out at 1:00 pm every day at school, and my dad doesn’t pick me up til’ around 4-5:00 after school, which during that time he expects me to go to the school library and finish homework and study. I don’t ever really go to the library anymore, because I have made so many good friends this year, which is something I hadn’t had since elementary school. I socialize after school with my friends, because I have missed the feeling of friends, and because I have many social and mental insecurities, that often mess up my persepective on myself. I am also into boys, and this is also part of my insecurities, that I am trying to fill up. I am not ever excited about doing any kind of school work or for that ever motivated.

My homelife has been in flames, and has taken a huge toll on how my parents treat me and trust me. They have high hopes and expectations for me, and are very into the image of a luxury lifestyle, and it is just graduatly decreasing quickly. My grades are the only thing that they could talk to me about, and they are upset that the fact that I am not that motivated in school. This situation at home along with other things, is also ruining my liking for actually doing any kind of work for I do most of my work at home. I am highly motivated in other things, like trying to look okay, making sure my hygine is in tact, excersizing and so fourth. I have so much dificulty in trying to gain some kind of motivation to do something, that I lack asking for help.

Is it to late to turn things around? I want my parents to like me again, and to be proud. How can I gain more habbits and gain more motivations. School, and friends, do not mix very good, in my case, and friends mean much more to me than school. How can I also change, without loosing my friends?

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