Voting Question: I have mind boggling thoughts about harming younger attractive kids, why?

22/02/12

I get these raging thoughts ALL day. I get these feelings like its my job to hurt children. By the way I am 14 years old and male. I don’t understand why I am getting these thoughts. My mom is disabled with Multiple Sclerosis and my dad has been taking care of her for 21 years! Anyways, life has been rough the past 6 months and I think its taking a toll on my dad, and I have to help take care of my mom everyday. I think this may be causing stress or something I am not sure. But anyways, the thoughts are horrible, like I want to bloody up innocent kids. Can someone please tell me why they think im getting these thoughts. And ps. there Constant! Day in, day out, I cant stop thinking about doing those things to them. Only attractive kids though, not unattractive kids or adults or animals, just innocent kids. Can some one help? And I also wanted to say, Am I insane? I literally think I am a worthless peice of dog shit sometimes, like I get really depressed and hate life and everyone, then 3 hours later, me my dad, and brother laughing histarically watching funny videos and life is great, but the thoughts are always there. 24/7. When im watching tv or somthing, ill be like “Damn id beat that kid like hell!”. I dont understand why. I am loving and caring and really do care about life. I have never got into trouble at school, and I really am a good kid. So Thank you. If you can help/.reccomend something, that would be great. Thanks! In like 2 years, I don’t want to end up murdering a child. I definitely don’t want that! But I feel like It needs to be done for some reason. I like screaming for some reason.
Also another question. Would an Anti-Depressant help at all?