Everyone, or at least it seems that way- seems to have an active social life. They have pictures of them hanging out with their friends, their girlfriends, parties etc… They sometimes mention where they work, what kind of car they own (Although not too often cause people my age (20) typically don’t have high paying jobs or fancy cars just yet)

All I can tell you about myself is that I’m a guy, I’m 20- I attend college full-time here at the local college near my home. I don’t have much; my family is poor - I rarely eat luxury foods or eat out- I generally often eat cheap foods that are filling like Oatmeal and Eggs which are a cornerstone of my diet.

I don’t have a job. Don’t have a car. Never did. I just take the public transit bus everyday to college and I pay for it via leftover money from my pell grant that I receive from my college.

I’m a pretty dedicated student. I spend hours on campus when I don’t even need too. I might only have 1 class on Monday that’s 1 hour long at 9am but i typically get to my college at 8am to study for an hour prior to class then spend the remaining time after class to brief over the new day’s notes and just sit in the cafeteria bored out of my mind…

Sometimes i wait hours just for someone to strike a conversation with me (and it happens once in a blue moon) Usually i make my way home back on the 1:13 or 2:13 pm bus after boring myself to death in the cafeteria for hours and after i finish my lunch.

I walk home off the bus stop, im fornate to only live a 1/2 hour walk from my bus stop. In my past home it used to take me a little over an hour walk home and hey it was rough - when your in florida and the weather outside is over 90 degrees outside plus humidity - it really takes a beating on ya.

Sometimes when I look at other people’s facebooks and I see their parent’s home (fancy furniture painting, big, and so on and so forth) then i just look at my own predicament (my kitchen has particle wood cabinets, popcorn ceiling, its only 1 bedroom actually)

i mean they have so much more than me… sometimes i ask myself “Why me?” - other kids in my situation might handle life in my shoes differently; they might move out, hang out with the wrong crowd and get into drugs etc… but that’s not me at all.

There’s nothing more in the world I desire than a good education and to make myself get somewhere in the world. There’s no doubt in my mind that I want to be a success story and live a life beyond anyone’s imagination. I have a 3.6 GPA in college- I have a natural knack for writing and consistently get A’s on my essays.

I just wish I had some… LIFE in my life if that makes sense to ya. A group of people I could call my own. Not just having to spend so much of my life alone drowning in my own thoughts and dreams…

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