Voting Question: who thinks being a virgin sucks?

31/07/09

Im black,19, and sick and tired of being a virgin!
being a virgin sucks @$$! all of my friends that I have know since grade school even my f-ing brother have lost their v-cards! Im the only guy who is still a virgin. they joke about it all the time. they say im like a 12 year old innocent boy trapped in a 19 yo guys body. ever have a uncle just laugh his @$$ off at your because you have never had sex? everybody I know has had sex atleast 20 times by know and here I am still a stupid virgin. Its not because Im ugly. Im a pretty decent looking guy. its just that I have been holding on to this stupid disney fantasy of finding that perfect somebody. well Ive seen the light and it turns out that perfect someone has more than likely had sex with about 5-10 guys by now. I have had lots of chances in the past to lose it but I chose not to presue the girls because they didnt connect with me on any level other than them being hot.I think its my moms fault Im like this…… well no……… its more my fault for believing in her. in 1950 being a virgin might have been something to be proud of but its 2009 and being a virgin=your a pu$$y
to men and women. well Im tired of being seen as a pussy! It was my original plan to wait till I got married but to hell with that! Im starting college soon and Im just going to have sex with the first attractive girl I meet who lets me. I think to myself dude your 19! If I wait any longer Im going to end up being the 40 year-old-virgin FOR REAL! I WOULDNT WISH THAT UPON MY WORST ENEMY!
this whole thing is just causing me alot of stress. I end up haveing to make up crazy sex stories whenever I make new friends because I learned at a young age as soon as you tell one of your guy friends your a virgin their respect for you drops like 20 points. It dont matter if they are black,asian,white,mexican, its the same thing everytime. I dont show it because Im use to hiding the way I feel about everything. I tell so manny lies sometimes I think Im NOT a virgin. HOW FUCCKED UP IS THAT?! at this point Im willing to have sex with just about anybody(no fat chicks, Im desprate but Im not hopeless) just to get rid of all this stress. Im mean I know people who have stds from too much sex and they get more respect than I do for being a virgin! I know girls who are 16 with f-ing kids! I meet guys who are my age and they have had sex with like 10+ girls! they have shown me pictures! and cell phone videos! after a while it really takes a toll on your self worth when shit like this happens. all I do is work out now. I dont watch tv, I dont hang out with friends, I dont play video games anymore,I dont talk to people, all I do is work out. I just lift weights and ride bikes trying to bulk up so when I get in college girls will notice that I exist. its not because Im fat. I only weight like 145 LB Im just trying to get muscles.
girls like that. I guess you can say that Im throwing away everything I believe In but the way I see it all that I believe was based on a lie so I no longer care about purity and things like that. I just want sex. I feel kind of bad saying this because its true. all of the standards I use to have and hold people to are just seem less and less important as the days go by. Im not saying Im going to be some sex craized freak who has sex with every woman I come into contact with its just this whole virgin thing has got to go. I just cant do this anymore. 19 years is just too much for me. I mean if a girl just knocked on my door right now and I have never seen her in my life and she said lets have sex i woulnt even think about It I would just grab a condom and do it. Im far beyond the point of caring. I know IM not the only guy who thinks like this.

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